i had a bad audition today. never imagined myself in such a situation before. i was actually, a real object worth detesting, a vocalist out of tempo... i mean, i'm really not that strong in rhythm, but to be embarrassed in front of a ton of instrumentalists is too much. i felt that everyone looked at me as i was some pathetic person who needed help, or worse, was beyond help. janos didn't comment much, he didn't comment on anyone's playing except a violinist, about whom he said good. of course, that guy played tchaikovsky's concerto no. 1 and made it through. well. here i am, out of the comfort zone of voice lessons (really, with a bunch of forgiving and equally out of tempo friends, and an accompanist patiently following me through thick and thin, fast and slow) into the harsh reality of mus 130. at least at the end of the audition, i have already got a partner and a piece... lakme that is. flower duet. i've wanted to do this for a long time.